Society is to Blame

Yesterday I went and blew m $50 art supplies voucher. I got me some stuff ^_^ It's cool. I'm happy. I got some good, thick watercolour paper. Yay!

After which I went shopping with my mum. It was wierd - We were dressed the same. I decided to wear a dress, which doesn't happen very often. It was floral -_-. which reminded her of her floral dress, so she bought it out and put it on, and we walked around town looking like one of those scarry mother-daughter teams. We also got a printer (I like my printer now ^_^!) so I can print out some good quality prints. Happy little me.

I just got my scores for my exams. I got an 18 for math, strangely. I didn't do so good in the other subjects - I got 15 and a half for english and I think a 17 (Or there abouts) for Physics and Art. So NO TWENTIES! Take that yaal, Ha! Actually, I'm a little irritated. If I'd gotten half a point more for english, so I had a 16 instead of 15.5, I would have had a TER score of 90. Doesn't 90 sound much better then 89.5? I mean seriously...

Well, I suppose that can't be helped now. In either case, I'm going to see Spirited Away tonight. Looking forwards to that ^_^! Having ant's crawl around in between yuor toes is REALLY annoying!

Last night the girls all got together for the first time in a while, and surprisingly the talk turned to a guy they seem to delight in irritating. Concidering we haven't spoken to him in two years, one would hope that they would perhaps let the sleeping dog rest and go on with life. But I guess they just had too much fun.

A long time ago, Ledi used to roleplay with a guy in a Pokemon RPG. They were team-mates, and she was rather impressed by how well he wrote. Hell, I was rather impressed by how well he wrote as well, but I didn't encounter him until much later. He has villan-speak.

They fell out, and the girls became vengeful. It makes me feel sick, to think of it. They just don't SEE how stupid and hypocritical they are, and they just keep going and never stop to think or realise... It makes me want to scream. But I won't - It's not my place. That's human nature I suppose. You are always in the right, you're group is right, and they are wrong. I wish it was that simple for all of us. I have trouble properly expressing exactly how I feel about the whole situation, alas I am not as good with words. But I may as well make an attempt.
The word disgusted springs to mind. Why is everyone I know so vengeful? Why do they feel that every slight must be repaied in full, and then some? Don't they understand the cycle that starts? Can they not see further then their own egos? I think the answer to most of that is 'just beacuse'. It's the way they are - It's in their nature to behave this way. They strive to be alphas, to be the lead female and have supremicy. That is their social drive. Do they feel perhaps they will loose status if they back down? They may not be aware of it, it is simply in their psychie. Likely they just enjoy it. They see it as some sort of challenge or purpose. And they like that feeling. Maybe because I have other distractions or a less vengeful nature or... something, whatever, I simply don't fully grasp the atraction. I always rather liked talking to him - He spent most of the conversation writing creative insults and I spent most of the time being zombie-girl pacifist. But at least it was more complicated then 'hi how r u a/s/l/ what size bra do u wear', which pisses me off no end. But I am obliged to dislike him due to my affiliations - and, as I say of many people I encounter 'I'm sure you're very nice, but youre a bitch/bastard and I wouldn't want to meet you face to face.' I have no doubt he's a jerk - and in dealing with jerks, avoiding them is the best stratergy.

It's still warm. I'm not being terribly inteligent right now, aren't I? Mayhaps it is best to leave off now. Enough rantnig about why I don't think you throw rocks at wasps nests.

"And the future is certain. Give us time to work it out."
~Road to nowhere.
- posted by Washi @ 9:44 am