7 minutes
I saw the world at dusk yesterday. I wanted to colour it. I want to draw something that I can colour in dusk. That was a sort of yellow pink dusk - I also want sometihng I can colour in the red dusk I saw last week. That was the most amazing thing ever. Mornings are never quite so pretty - they're to pale, washed out, new. They lach the age that dusk has.

But I may have to content myself with some sketches.

I'll try to update my site soon. I tried yesterday. It failed. I'll try again.

- posted by Washi @ 2:52 pm 0 comments

 
One more tap... I dare you...
There are people here. They've poped open one of the towers like a wallnut and are curently fiddling with it's insieds. It's almost macarbely interesting. If that's an apropriate extension of the word macarbe. Or an apropriate spelling. They're pulling parts out - the motherboard was just ecposed, and the're currently juggling around one of the other, larger parts in an effort to move it aside. I think that's the fan that just got moved up there.

Sorry, I find it somewhat facinating. It's like watchnig surgery, except for the seeing the blood part. Surgery on a living thing is squishy and unplesant. Yoo much soft tissue.

Anyway. Last night, the most messed up thing hapened. My legs started to ache. At first it was just my ankles and feet. So I sat down. Then I had to move around, and it psread up my laves to my knees. So everything from the knee down caned. So I tried to warm it and got a leg rub. By the time I got to bed (admittedly a little after 2) I had pain all the way up from my feet to my lower back. Probably just acid (it was gone this morning) but damn it was fecked up. It was sugested tha it may be stress related. It's funny though - what does it actually feel like to be stressed? Because, while I'm aware that I may well be stressed out due to lack of sleep, poor eating and my inate ability to make things more dificult thne they have to be, no one's ever said 'You know you're feeling stressed when...' Except to say things like 'You get sick more' or 'you feel lethargic'. The latter may be true, but as I said, not getting enough sleep may be the cause of this. I suppose other people would be aware that you were 'stressing out' - which is much the same as panicking from what I've noticed. But what about that long, creeping stress tht's characterised only by things that can't be seen, like poor health, lethargy, aches and pains, headaches, etcetera? Where's the automatic feedback 'Oh yeah, you're getting stressed now. Avoid this feeling'. It's to similar to anxiety and panic on the odd ocasion when it actuall yemerges as an emotion. seriously, evolution COULD have done a better job with that reflex -_- Especially for something that can be so damaging. At least we're less inclined to die. Small animals tend to die very quickly from stress. And they, too, can seem fine.

Enough about stress. gonna be a code monkey for a while. Trying to hold on to picture ideas untill then. Kayain and the Crow, The Sands, the bridge... they're all gonna end up being large projects if I do get to do them. But I will do my best - I really, REALLY want to draw them -_-.

Okay, enough with the whining. Donnie Darko directors cut coming out soon. Muuuust... Seeeee.... :: drool ::

Bro's B'day coming up too. Poor boy.

Nuff said. Lecture soon. Full of rage. Quet rage. Mmm, tastey rage.

- posted by Washi @ 1:36 pm 0 comments

 
I Rage in Your General Direction
Sometimes... I think I'd really like to kick things. Lots and lots of things really, really hard. Then I think I'd like to use some of these thing sto break some of the other things.

Then again, who doesn't?

I keep missing my phone. So I have to cal up to get the message. It's eaten away my credit quite substantially. But most of the time, and this is what irritates me, it's my mother calling me. And when she does this, I go for my phone, only to have it time out just as I'm going to answer it. All because I'm not a yuppy who keeps her phone attached to her belt. Bah. Pisses be off.

Or would do if I had the energy for it -_-

Actually, what irritates me more is that she's asking for websites with Anime Art on them that could be given to some woman she work's with for her son. So I also gotta think 'so... what is apropriate for a male of inditerminate age to view that I know the URL to off the top of my head and is, preferably, in English?'

Also asked what I meant when I said my website was unreliable. Those who go there regularly probably know what I mean. 'Splains a lot really.

It needs updating too...

I haven't done much this week. I need to get some work done. Tonight should be good for it - CSI and The Pannel, followed bt SG1 and the X Files. So many letters is bound to inspire me, ja?

Thursday used to be TV night, you know?

I guess being at Liam's isn't that condusive to getting homework done ^^; Being at home isn't much better, but at least there's a TV in the kitchen, so I can do work at the kitchen table. The closest is the TV in the bedroom, but lately being in bed has, odly enough, made me what to curl up with my eyes closed and do very little.

Damn I wish I had net credit's left -_- I wanna go Devianting. I've got a whole buncha stuff to oggle.

On the bright side though, provided I finish this, I'll only have 2 other assignments to work on. That'll be nice. One of them is apparently a comprehension exercise. I'm fecked, royally so.

I think I'm getting worse with the anxiousness. It's still not anything I'd concider a problem, but it is thoroughly irritating. Or I could just be PMSing, which is also thoroughly irritating. Right now, everything is. Which lends weight to option 2 ^_^

I need to get some more comissions methinks. I'm kinda low on cash. I'll advertise on DA and my site either this weekend or thursday, and put out another auction. Even if all I get is a sequence of $5's, that's something -_-

Anyway, gotta skedaddle. No quote - at Uni. Sore.

Bah. RAGE!!

- posted by Washi @ 1:49 pm 0 comments

 
Hardcore Samurai
Rant time.

Went to see Zatoichi yesterday. I loved it. LOVED IT SO MUCH!!!! It's so freekin awesome!! It's got some awesome fight scenes, it's bloomin hillarious in places and serious and dramatic in others, And some of that shit just comes out of nowhere! It's briliant! The Geisha's rock, and the Maseus... sooooo cooool! And creepy sometimes - seriously, that dude's beyond hardcore.

The music was awesome and the finalle... The finalle rocked my world ^_^!!

For those who don't know - and there are far too many of you - Zatoichi is a film about a blind wandering maseus / gambler who also happens to be one of the, if not the, greatest swordsman in Japan at that time. Stars Beat Takeshi, who is famous (mostly) for being... well, Beat Takeshi. He a;so directed it too, so he's definitely got my props here ^_^!!

The only things I think people may have a problem with are the jumpiness of scenes - they jump from flashbacks to real world to fantasy and back with very little warning. But it doesn't take too much to work out where you are at that time. Still, some people may get irritated by being made to work that out themselves. There's also the appearance of the blood, which I believe was deliberately made to look more fake to prevent the movie from colapsing into gore as it so easilly could have, and the lack of time given to the wandering Ronin and his... female companion. It's not made clear to english viewers exactly what their relationship is. But I suppose as much time as could be spared was given to him, and he did get that interesting bokkun scene.

And the Finalle!! I'm sorry, I really really enjoyed that. It was kinda coming the whole way though - what with the four pesants in the fileds and the wood chopping - it did lead up to it well.

Oh yead, did I mention that I liked the music?

Okay, that's Washi's review of sorts. I'm pleased I went to see it, even with the creative editing - actually kinda liked that ^^; But I'm like that, and I loved the characters.

Anyway, onwawrds... My cousin was involved in a really bad car accident. He's alive and not braindamaged, and I'll tell you what he's bloody lucky to have gotten off so lightly. Fell asleep behind the wheel. Crashed into a fence post. The moral is don't drive if you're tired kiddies. Learn it.

Fathers day has passed. Ri-chan's birthday tomorrow. Happy Birthday! (Yes, I know - I'm actually sitting next to him at this moment, but he's reading. so nyah!)

Nuff said. In love with Nightwish right now. So... Love!! It's like... metal opera. Sort of. I'm bad at describing music. It's Nightwish style music. Ja?


Needaquote needaquote... Ummm...

"It's not the monsters under your bed
It is the Man next door
That makes you fear, makes you cry..."
~ Nightwish

- posted by Washi @ 6:12 pm 0 comments

 
It's You...
I finally worked it out!! I finally know who it is that's fuckin' standing on the sand! I have no Idea why it didn't frekin click sooner. Jesus... "The call of the white sands summons me''... Sorceror!! It's fucking Sorceror/Rain there! And if the little shit had just said something sooner, I wouldn't have thought that maybe a random would suffice. You stupid Rain!! I'd kick you if you didn't enjoy it so much -_-

I wonder if I can get Wrath in there... Or Mageddon. We'll see what eventuates, now that I know what's going on.

It's a lot of effort for something that aint' gonna be that great.

"Heaven will come - Heaven can wait" is another one. But I think that's Angel's sons. Eventually, they too will get drawn. So on computer, I do Aspen and Moon. On paper, I finally do White sands. On the to do pile, I put Heaven/Heaven and Kayain and the Crow. I'm in trouble -_-

More then that, it's quater past 2 and I have to be up at 6:30 tomorrow. I'm gonna be so royally screwed. And I need to study for that test I have on friday. I erally should study... y'know, at least a little.

Except I'll probably just fall asleep. Like I always do. God I hate me. No net tomorrow night - straight to work and to bed.

Brain so full. So much stuff I want to do. Too incompetent to do most of it. Bad, bad puppy.

Someone knock me unconscious for a while -_- I could do with the break.


"I'm in love with my lust
Burning angelwings to dust"
~ I wish I had an Angel, Nightwish

- posted by Washi @ 2:06 am 0 comments