Psychic Vampires
I'm so tired. Dunno why. I went to bed at 11 after being awake for about 4 hours, woke up again at 4 and went back to sleep around 6:30, to be woken up at around 9:30 (My alarm went off at 8:30) by mum asking if I wanted to come shoping with her. I owed her an x-mas present that fitted, so I agreed.

Tomorrow I head up to Dad's for new years, and the rodeo. I'ev just heard an advert for it on the radio. $15 to enter, but it should still be good ^_^;; Ri-chan really doesn't want to go. I think he'd rather be with his friends - and that's fair enough I guess, I should at least grant him that. I'd really like to spend New Years with him - We'll have been going out 8 months come new years.

I guess it's my own fault for asking too much. Lewiston is a long way away from anyone else, it's a bit far to ask him to come. But I didn't get to spend christmas with my family, ad it's the first time I've not done so. So I want to spend a little time with m father - I havent' seen him in too long as it is. Still, that's not eally an excuse, ne?

It's belting with summer rain out there.

And now the sun's come out.

Photoshop is being a little bitch to me. I'm working on a new layout - Jabari flavoured, so I'll finally get my brown layout. I have a few good ideas, but... Photoshop won't co-operate. Mean, mean photoshop.

I want to drink some more water, but if I put anything else in my stomach... I'll pop.


"Trumpet in a herd of elephants; crow in the company of cocks; bleat in a flock of goats. "
~ Malayan Proverb

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A Moment of Tao
Todays moment of Tao is bought to you by Ripleys Believe It Or Not. May the sun burn their yellowed hearts to a crispy charcoal black.

For every Spider Girl, there is a Fly Boy.

I feel ill.

And Zeo was an ANDROID???


"Just because you dont have a pulse, doesn't mean we can't be friends!"
~Tyson, Beyblades.
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The Summer Wind
It's cooled down and tried to rain a little today. I do respect the effort, allow me to assure you.

Now, update. Today I got waxed. So still a littel sore ^_^;; Also got to watch lots of Futurama last night. Futurama cool. Sadly, konked out at about midnight. I'll be going to bed early tonight, as you may be able to guess.

Zoe's said she'll invite me to some of the parties she goes to. I'm not sure about it, but of course I agreed. Her current circle is more Lauren's circle of friends, and they're scarry scarry bo's in my oppinion. Crazy parties are all well and good, provided you, if not trust, at least know the people present. And I don't like that type of person so much. But I shouldn't knock it untill I've tried it I suppose.

If you want nurses, get freekin Enrolled Nurses. They can do the menial stuff no problems and take the pressure off of Registered Nurses having to do things below what they've been trained for.

Stupid government.

Okay, now that my argument with the radio is over...



"Taste like Crab, Talk like people"
~ Crab people song, South Park
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A Fortnight On...
I haven't been able to post for a while. Through either lack of desire or the server being down... at least to me. Anyway, update.

In the past fortnight I've had two other attacks. That's more then I usually have in four months. Heck, it might be more then I've had in the six months previous for all I know. As a result, I've been trying to take it easy with the stressful situations, which isn't being helped by the fact I've been hit by a regret attack. These occur when you suddenly get flashes of all the stupid things you've said and done, all at once, untill you want to hit your head against something and go 'noo, me so stupid, me need brain transplant' and so on and such forth. It's also not a condition of sleep that one bust be jerking around all night, so lets leave that off there.

I finally bought my top. It's a green chong-san style with gold embroider and it fits beautifully, as well as being a nice colour. I also got the presents for everyone. Except for limas parents, I still haven't clarified what they're getting yet.

Its hot. Really hot. this fan is having trouble cutting it.

I'm a moron. I've just done somethnig else stupid.

Gah. Anyway... I really don't have the stamina for long roleplay sessions, I've learnt. I get bored and loose concentration too quickly. Not a good thing. Not that I'm much good to begin with - sometimes I wonder what the frig I think I'm doing. But hey. Let's go make some hay. It's hot enough...

Zoe'd like to come up to the rodeo. Should be cool. She'll probably enjoy it, even though I worry that Liam really won't.

Updating my site. All fall down now.

There's not a lot to report. Mum's birthday has passed. She loved her present, much to my relief. I've been getting up early each day to watch morning cartoons. I then usually go back to sleep.

I may be able to convince Ri-chan to go shopping with me wednesday, as I'll be going in for a wax and there may be a wait before an slot presents itself.

I got my hair cut. Nice and short. Furbid is still my best source of commissions. The exchange rate from american to australian is okay, but the fees are pretty nasty if what you're changing is only a $20 note. I'd never seen american currency before. it's so... odd, compared to all the bright colours of our own money. And so squigly.

Still don't remember which river India was named after. You think, after so much pain, I'd remember. Don't tell me though, that'll only compund it. And I feel stupid enough as it is.

I worry about my friends. I don't freally feel I belong with them. I dont' really feel I belong with any group these days. I'm still trying to revert methinks. I've gotta do some more BE too. And some more of Liam's comission, that boys been infinitely patient with me.

Better hop to it. I'd like to say I've got something deep and meaningful to say... but I think we both know I'd be lying.



"First secure an independent income, then practice virtue. "
~ Greek Proverb

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Sushi... Sushi... Harikiri... Harikiri...
This weekend has been… difficult to describe.

I’m not an emotional person. I think we can all accept this, yes? It’s been an emotional weekend. Mostly from Saturday night onwards. I had another attack of palpitations. This meant I had to leave EB early, which in a way was a good thing as I could probably do with a break. I’m not good at Vampire. But I made Ri-Chan kinda upset because he hadn’t been able to hear the phone ring and I left a kinda pathetic message on his phone – turned out he went to a couple of birthday parties that night in the end, and was moving between them (One at some weird café, the other at a strip club). I felt kinda bad for interrupting his night.

Sunday night didn’t involve a health condition, but it did involve an issue. I felt really bad and upset over something I probably shouldn’t have – after all, it wasn’t really that important was it? But the bad thing was I was mean about trying to explain it (The opportunity just popped up, and after my last post about not talking how could I possibly not take it?) so I made Ri-Chan sad. I’m sorry. But I tried to make it better and make an effort later on, even though I was still tired and a little upset from making an effort before. Yeah, I know, I suck as a girlfriend.

Moving on – I stayed up late to watch the rest of Azumanga Daioh (spelling?) and morning cartoons, and then slept until 3, thereby missing the chance to go shopping as we had originally planned. So we planed to go the next day. We didn’t of course, but this is beside the point.

The point is that at the moment I find myself... afraid because of an event that occurred Monday night. Not to say that this is different from any other time, of course, simply to say that I am. And I’m not afraid of Ri-Chan specifically – that would be mean. I was just given a fright, and I’m still feeling it. Things get complicated when I start thinking, no?

In any case, I’ve got mum’s birthday present now. And with luck, despite multiple delays, I’ll soon be able to go out and do my blooming Christmas shopping.

The end.


“An adequate bootstrap is a contradiction in terms.”

“And I will show you something different from either
Your shadow at morning striding behind you
Or your shadow at evening rising to meet you;
I will show you fear in a handful of dust.”
~ The Waste Land, T. S. Elliot

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