Stark. Raving. Mad.
Got a new monitor to replace the busted one.  Yay!  It's so biiiig.  Compared to the old one, anyway ^_^;; but the speakers are crap, so we'll have to get speakers.

Now... Why o WHY do I insist on doing this to myself? I'm terrified of spiders.  Like - seriously terrified.  I see spiders everywhere - when they're there, I will almost definitely see them, and I occasionally see them when they're not there, which makes me extremely paranoid (If you've ever seen me acting paranoid, it's probably ebcause the frekin spiders are after me, I'm convinced).  Hell, there's a moderately large (body about the size of a 20c piece, legs not included - although that may have grown like a fish) spider that I nuked weaks ago that's been stuck in the curtains since that still scares me - even though it's a very dead spider.  It's still there and it scares me, but I'm too scared to move it.

So what do I do?  I decide that Sierra HAS to be asociated with a spider!  So I want to draw her with her spider.  But I'm scared to even LOOK AT PHOTOS of spiders!  Gah!!

I picked a spindly spider like Redbacks and Widows because, while they are venomous (non-venomous spiders are always large, furry and ugly, making them five times more terrifying), they're not agressive, they'er smaller and the widows at least aren't found here (Redbacks are, but they're easy to treat if you know what you were bitten by, and provided it didn't get you in the scrote, which happens) - and they aren't always fatal.  Okay, few spiders are ALWAYS fatal, but while they are deadly without treatment, they aren't always deadly without treatment.  if you get the drift.  So althuogh I'm terrified of them, I can reason my way out of them. Plus they're distinctively 'spider' - they say spider more then most other spiders, except for huntsmen and tarantulas.  Which also terrify me, despite being fairly safe spiders (no spider is truely safe)... Gah!  I've managed to freak myself out just talking about them.

The only spider that doesn't terrify me (Apart from the tiny spiders that live in books, which do scare me a little until I remind myself that it's smaller than any given letter on the page) are Daddy Long Legs.  And lets face it, they don't look much like spiders - which is probably the reason.  They kinda look like seeds with legs to walk around.  There are a few in this shed that I've concidered getting rid of, but... I don't want to go near the webs -_-

So in conclusion I'm terrified of spiders.  And scorpions - I'm scared of scorpions too.  Not so much, since I encounter fewer scorpions, but they're often just as large and terrifiying, and I can't stand looking at pictures of them.  I've already played masochist with them though, through Zarqa (Who just HAD to be associated with scorpion - damn me!!)

Okay, that's over now... My hair is scaring me... and why? BECAUSE OF SPIDERS!!!!  Stupid paranoid brain!

 
"Correct me if I'm wrong, but hasn't the fine line between sanity and madness gotten finer?"
~ George Price

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Touch of Death
My home has had no luck with technology lately.  The VCR just chewed up the tape I was watching (I can't get it out now) and while I aws away our monitor finally gave up the proverbial ghost.  We're using a rental monitor at the moment.  A RENTAL! It's so big I worry it'll break the computer desk.

Whoops, and that webpage didn't show right ^_^;;

I need to go to bed earlier then 4 tonight.  I want to try for 2, but it's quater to one now, so I don't know how that will go...

Eh, mayhaps I should leave this there, ja?  The othe website is so completely not working it's beyond sad.

 
“A mathematician is a device for turning coffee into theorems.” ~ Paul Erdös

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Dreams of a Diseased Spleen
I haev really bizzare dreams. Allow me to relate those I can remember! (I sometimes remember them, and then forget them, and then remember them again. I'm supposed to be writing them down, but my book's not always convenient.)

Dream 1: I dreamed I was sitting at the foot of a conference table. We were eating a meal, and everyone was dressed in business suits. For some reason, Grettel Coleen, host of Australian Big Brother, was also at the table. Without warning, people came through the door. They looked normal enough, but they were aliens. And they'd come to arrest us. One of the guys further up the table was indignant, but I remember asking him "what exactly were you expecting?" And they were all marched out. Me and Grettel were the last to leave - we were collecting our coats and bags and stuff. Most of the aliens had left with the others anyway, there was only one with us and it wasn't really paying attention. We were escorted out of the building, and once we got outside the others were taken onto an extremely stereotypical spaceship while Grettel and I made a rather undramatic escape - she went one way I went the other. And as I ran off I new I had to get to our own base, which oddly looked like a spaceship in my memory of it too. But the city was overrun with Darleks. So I was sneaking around the darleks. And I felt very afraid and hunteed, and desperate to get to this base and tell people what had happened. And then I woke up :P I think Grettel got caught.

This dream gets an added star if wierdness because it's not only got a TV host I don't particularly like, it's got a pop icon alien robot species.

Now, the interpreter says...

Aliens
To dream that you are being abducted by aliens, indicates your fears of your changing surroundings or your fear of losing your home and family. You feel that your space and/or privacy is being invaded.
To see aliens in your dream , signifies that you are having difficulties adapting and adjusting to your new surroundings. You are feeling "alienated" and invaded. You are also having difficulties in how to handle or deal with a certain situation or person. On a psychological level, seeing aliens may represent an encounter with an unfamiliar or neglected aspect of your own self.

Chase
To dream that you are being chases, signifies that you are avoiding a situation that you do not think is conquerable. It is often a metaphor for some form of insecurity. In particular, to dream that you are chased by an animal, represents your own unexpressed and unacknowledged anger which is being projected onto that animal. Alternatively, you may be running away from a primal urge or fear.

Is a Darlek an animal?

Anyway, onto some older dreams:

Dream 2: I dreamed I was in one of my school coridors back in highscool, and I met up with a few of my aquantances. And it was a school... Until it suddenly became a submarine (It was the school. It looked exactly the same in every whay, I just KNEW it was a submarine). And then one of the girls told me that the military were invading (How they invaded a submarine I don't know - Dreams don't have to make sense). So me and those people I was hanging out with at the time joined the effort to get these foreign invaders (They kinda looked like normal people in plain green army suits - maybe they were the American or Australian army?)

This one really ammused me at the time - it was that kind of dream we all have where everything seems normal, provided we're still dreaming. So now, with the power of retrospect - let's examine!

Submarine
To see a submarine in your dream, indicates that you are cautiously exploring your emotions and examining your unconscious feelings. You still remain guarded about certain emotional issues. Alternatively, the submarine indicates that you need to adapt a different perspective and understanding. You may need to get down to the core of some situation or problem.

High School
To dream about high school, refers to the bounds and friendships that you made while you were in high school. What spiritual lessons have you learned? The dream may also be telling you that you need to start preparing for the real world.

Military
To see the military in your dream, signifies rigid authority and emotional repression. Disciplinary action may be brought upon you.

Interesting... and rather valid. Dreams from The Dream Dictionary

In any case, I should leave that there methinks. It's quater past 6, and I haven't slept yet.

Sorry t'is not more interesting. Been wrinting more stupid Orion story. also had an idea for another story I want to write/draw/dos omething with. Short story. Yay!




" 'You perceive, now, that these things are all impossible except in a dream. You perceive that they are pure and puerile insanities, the silly creations of an imagination that is not conscious of its freaks -- in a word, that they are a dream, and you are the maker of it. The dream-marks are all present; you should have recognized them earlier.
'It is true, that which I have revealed to you; there is no God, no universe, no human race, no earthly life, no heaven, no hell. It is all a dream -- a grotesque and foolish dream. Nothing exists but you. And you are but a thought -- a vagrant thought, a useless thought, a homeless thought, wandering forlorn among the empty eternities!'
He vanished, and left me appalled; for I know, and realized, that all he had said was true."
~ The Mysterious Stranger, Mark Twain

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