Monday, May 19, 2003
Fear the Fangirls
Long weekend this weekend. Yay! Gives me a whole free day to work on my report tomorrow, get the seccond half done. Probably should look up some articles to reference as well. But I'm going to have to ensure I muscle Taz and Ben away from the computer and back to the x-box.
My weekend's been fairly good so far. The same cannot be said for my mother, however. She was involved in a car accident. The front of our car is smashed in and mum was left rather sore from the collision. But she doesn't appear to have any signifigant bruising, and the Chiropractor should be able to help. She borrowed Manny's car untill the insurance company comes and works out wether out car is a write-off. Looking at the damage, it probably is. I arrived home Friday night (I'd been out since thursday morning, so I wasn't actually present for the crash) and was wondering why the car was parked out the front. Mum had to point to the bonnet and tell me to look before I noticed how much more compact it was though. So she hasn't been able to work as much, due to havihg to wait for insurance guys who say they're gonna show up and then don't. ::frown::
Now, onto my usual self-asorbed bitch session - I am pathetic. Thankyou for your time.
Okay, minor elaboration. I got my standard night-time sick-scared feeling again (a little worse then usual - normally only that bad after I've ended up subjected to SVU), but this time triggered by something someone said... about a polar-bear thing... and let's not go into it. But at least this time I didn't trigger it myself, just ended up dwelling in my stupid pseudo-masochistic way. Okay, no more dwelling - lest I want to end up the same tonight. I plan to either get some sleep or solidify some stories tonight - no room for my own stupidity. Nyah!!
Besides, I'm happy and contented now. It's late, so I shold be going to bed, but... I still want to write.
Liam asked a friend of his to make an animal hoodie for me ^_^!! It's purple and cute and I love it. Many thanks to her ^_^.
Hmmm... anything else of note... Ah yes, Mum suggested Liam and I should go up and see dad, so that he can meat Liam. I wonder if she realises just how FAR lewiston is?
I saw Zoe on wednesday ^_^ had a good time. Enjoyed myself. Talked about the theories and sciences of Astral Projection. That might be something to take up working towards again. Or not ::shrug:: Ah well. It's getting late.
I want to post this here - you don't have to read it if you don't want to. It's some crap I wrote one evening, but I sort of like it- It's because it's extremely obscure compared to the shiznit crap I usully write. Yes, it's a little bit of poetry. It's in the poetry part of my site (Under the kitten condition) but since very few people in their right minds read that section (And rightly, so - most of the stuff there is uber-ughworthy), I'll put it here. Like that Eva M post I made ^_^;;
Hearken the words in the darklight
The songs which we sang in the twilight
When blinded by the air as thick as milk
We sought to see some small star shining
That denying both the light above and below
Sough its own space to fill.
That which we sought not in the sky
Not written in the air nor trees
But in the very dirt and ash beneath us
Saw we our hearts last truth
That from here all things come
And so do all return.
For I have known this well
And I have seen, which to none must I tell.
For we are ennobled. God-like in our shape
And I have within me that which was formed
At the conception of the universe.
What part that was our stars is now in me-
What flows in the heart of our sun flows so though me.
And I am divine.
Yet in that sand and dirt below
So too is in my form.
My body and brain, sent though the guts of worms
To be returned to me
So to be hearing it spoken thus.
And I am mortal.
And so I am; And so am I
We are the darklight; the words of the ages
Filter through the ears of generations
And in legend told
So what we knew would pass to you
The silent and immobile
Immune to our faults
The petty flaws which we, rebelling against our blood,
Inserted in our nature- these flaws.
We were silent;
And in our silence we hid our knowledge
For we have seen the starlight on the oceans
And we have seen the sun claw over planets
As distant as a fairy light.
With this hand
That so slew the last phoenix
And in doing so was itself consumed.
And in doing so became the darklight.
But silence must I keep of this.
We sat alone upon the sunny stoop
Watching children play with rope and hoop
We heard the words with which they whispered
As though to fool our ears
'She just doesn't understand' 'She sits there all alone'
Aloner? Such accusations!
Such sweet temptation- to be alone
To us is but a dream
A fear-
We are never alone, and existing as we do
Between the hours of the night and day
When dark is light, and light is night
We move through silent airs amidst
A silent cloud of lacework wings
Which by their very numbers seek to humble us.
We were the darklight, the life which we led
When lying back with face upturned
Our ears picked out our names
As though spoken by some cautious pigeon
Some spider's silk above our heads
And in the whisper, so confuse
And so consume our minds with dread.
The song of ages plays to us
Its symphony the wind
The orchestra the leaves of elder trees
And in the hearing, we have known
The touch of forever, done-
But this we can relate to none.
I have known it all, seen it all
These are my thoughts to think
Which, knowing of my soul
And knowing of my failing
So lead to understanding.
For I am the forgotten
I am the discarded child, the one
That people see, but in the seeing
Gain an uneasy sense
And so move on.
My charge is ever silence
My thoughts are ever mine
And mind, however logical, irrational or absent
In mine alone, and no mans domain-
Nor the bitter, nor the darklight, nor the sane.
Your ideal mate is Nightcrawler. His appearance
may be a bit off-putting, but his heart and
personality more than make up for it. He is
shy and isn't very sociable and comes off as a
bit of a loner (but you'll fix that). He is
also devoted and strong, and he always seems to
just *pop* up whenever you need him the most. :
)
Who Is Your Ideal X-Men 2 Mate? (ladies only)
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You are Cyclops!
You are attractive and strong, in a boy scout
republican sort of way. You are set firm in
your beliefs, which is not necessarily a bad
thing. But often when faced with a conflicting
opinion you become defensive and angry and
prone to conflict. You like to be a leader,
but you must acknowledge that there are some
situations which others are better fit to deal
with than yourself.
Which X-Men character are you most like?
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I'm... WHO??? Actually that isn't terribly accurate - I would have said Storm myself. I clicked with her ^_^;;
| Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... | ||
| Category | Your Score | Average |
| Self-Lovin' | 86.7% Never taken out of the packaging | 63.3% |
| Shamelessness | 95.2% Has yet to see self in mirror | 78.1% |
| Sex Drive | 94.7% The Pope is envious | 76.4% |
| Straightness | 42.9% Done the nasty, but not creatively | 42.4% |
| Gayness | 100% | 81.4% |
