Something's really, really wrong with me - I dont' know what it is, but I think there's something in me that's broken. Like I'm diseased somewhere inside me, and it's eaten away at something I need, something I should be able to deal with that's healthy and good. I'm frightened, but that's not it's soul - it's just a by-product. Either I'm so scared I can't stop crying, or it's the thing that's broken that's making me cry. I shouldn't be crying over this - I should be turned on, or at least distantly interested. Instead I'm sobbing like I'm about to die, and I cant' stop. And I don't want to - I'd like to choke on my tears, drown and be done with it all. What's wrong with me? Why am I so broken? And why, when I'm done here, will I go back and do it again? Why is it chipping away at the very fabric of my soul,when it shouldn't do that at all? Please... what's wrong with me... I know it's something... it has to be. It isn't right, it shouldn't be that way. It goes against my religion, everything I believe - why am I sucgh a lose, such a frikkin MORON! I'm sorry... I'm so sorry... I don't know what's wrong with me, I really dont... Please, don't ask. I don't know what I'll say - I don't know how to tell. Please don't...
- posted by Washi @ 10:55 pm