"It Always Hurts to Punish the Boys More Then the Girls. I Hope He Won't Take This Too Seriously..."
I just awoke from the most fucked up dream. It was similar to a dream I'd had before, but the people were all diferent. The start has become hazy in the time it took me to walk over here - I dreamed I was wandring around, and the place I was in was strange and nowhere I've been before. I dremed there were people I know there - Even Ri-chan was there, but he was busy talking to someone else and wouldn't talk to me. He was lying on the ground wrapped around this other girl and sitting across from this other guy, and I became ferociously jealous that he was ignoring me for them. So I went into another quiet room and cried with frustration. I think later in the dream he acnowledged me, but I wouldn't acnowledge him. I stormed through this building for a while and avoided everyone, slowly growing more angry and hurt. I eventually spoke to someone, who noticed the change in me. She asked me a series of questions - if it was Rosie for example, and she seemed impressed with me when I sighed and said it wasn't her. Rosei was te name of the girl with Ri-chan, but it wasn't the girl with Ri-chan's actual name... the dream named her Rosie.
Then the me, or the body I was riding in, said that I'd been off since I killed... and I didn't say who I'd killed. I then drifed out. I ended up chating to someone I know on a sort of jungle-themed ICQ program or somesuch. He was talking to me IC (I don't know IC for what) and was talking about the changling ball. I think that was in the original dream too. I snipedat him out of character, called him a sad little boy. I then heard myself say the words you see in the title of this post and the words changed to large wooden words. I saw myself using ropes to tie up the letters of S U I C I D E undernieth the earlier comment. I don't think I slept long enough to see that last time. I woke up rigt after, a minute before my alarm was due to go off. Untill I started typing I still felt the hurt, anger, rejection and desire to break everything of the dream. It was that strong.

Let's see what Dream Moods Says about my dream... well, the themes therein anyway.

Anger
To dream that you are holding or expressing anger, symbolizes frustrations and disappointments in your Self. You tend to repress your negative emotions or project your anger onto others. You need to look within yourself.

Being angry in your dream may have been carried over from your waking life. Dreams can function as a safe outlet where you can express your strong and/or negative emotions. You have some suppressed anger and aggression that you have not consciously acknowledged.

Jealousy
To dream that you are jealous of another person, signifies that such feelings may be carried over from your waking life This dream may reveal you unconscious feelings of jealousy toward that particular person. Alternatively, it represents your vulnerability and your fear of intimacy. You need to work on self-love and acknowledging your self-worth.

Rejection
To dream that you are rejecting something, indicates that there are feelings or situations that you want to be rid of. Alternatively, you may be refusing to accept a situation that is being imposed and forced upon you.

To dream that you are being rejected, signifies a lack of self-worth and alienation of others.

Boyfriend
To see your boyfriend in your dream, represents your waking relationship with him and how you feel about him.

To dream that your boyfriend tells you that he is gay or that he doesn't love your anymore, represents your own insecurities with the relationship. It may also mean that the relationship is moving to a new level to which you are expressing some anxiety and fears about the changing situation. You may feel left out it in his life or that you are unable to share in all his experiences. It boils down to trust and communication.

Cry
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.

To dream that no one hears or responds to your cries, represents your helplessness and difficulties and frustrations in trying to communicate with others. You feel that your words are falling on deaf ears. Perhaps your dream is telling you to be more vocal and work harder to get your point across.

Ignore
To dream that you are ignoring someone or being ignored, represents some aspect of yourself which you are not paying enough attention to. Alternatively, it may reflect your real waking experiences of being ignored by that person.

Murder
To dream that you have committed a murder, indicates that you are putting an end to an old habit and your former ways of thinking. This could also mean an end to an addiction. Alternatively, you may have some repressed aggression or rage at yourself or at others. Note also that dreams of murder occur frequently during periods of depression.

Killing
To dream that you kill someone, indicates that heavy stress may cause you to lose your temper and self-control. Consider the person you have killed and ask yourself if you feel any rage towards him or her in your waking life. You may very well be expressing some anger or hatred toward this person. Alternatively, you may be trying to kill or put an end to an aspect of yourself that is represented by the person killed. Identify the characteristics of this person and ask yourself how you do not want to be like him or her.

Roses (For Rosie, the only othernamed participant.)
To see roses blooming in your dream, signifies faithfulness in love and the arrival of a much joyous occasion. Roses also symbolize love, passion, femininity, and romance, particularly if they are red roses. If you see a white rose, then it symbolizes virginity, pureness, and secrecy. It you see a yellow rose, then it refers to infidelity or jealousy.

White, Gray (The rooms were all pale gray)
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. However, in Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.

Gray indicates fear, fright, depression, ill health, ambivalence and confusion. You may feel emotionally distant or detached.

Jungle
To dream that you are in a jungle, signifies aspects of yourself and your personality that may have been inhibited.

Well that was a trip and a half. Now, let's actually do some WORK.


- posted by Washi @ 1:42 pm