One more tap... I dare you...
There are people here. They've poped open one of the towers like a wallnut and are curently fiddling with it's insieds. It's almost macarbely interesting. If that's an apropriate extension of the word macarbe. Or an apropriate spelling. They're pulling parts out - the motherboard was just ecposed, and the're currently juggling around one of the other, larger parts in an effort to move it aside. I think that's the fan that just got moved up there.

Sorry, I find it somewhat facinating. It's like watchnig surgery, except for the seeing the blood part. Surgery on a living thing is squishy and unplesant. Yoo much soft tissue.

Anyway. Last night, the most messed up thing hapened. My legs started to ache. At first it was just my ankles and feet. So I sat down. Then I had to move around, and it psread up my laves to my knees. So everything from the knee down caned. So I tried to warm it and got a leg rub. By the time I got to bed (admittedly a little after 2) I had pain all the way up from my feet to my lower back. Probably just acid (it was gone this morning) but damn it was fecked up. It was sugested tha it may be stress related. It's funny though - what does it actually feel like to be stressed? Because, while I'm aware that I may well be stressed out due to lack of sleep, poor eating and my inate ability to make things more dificult thne they have to be, no one's ever said 'You know you're feeling stressed when...' Except to say things like 'You get sick more' or 'you feel lethargic'. The latter may be true, but as I said, not getting enough sleep may be the cause of this. I suppose other people would be aware that you were 'stressing out' - which is much the same as panicking from what I've noticed. But what about that long, creeping stress tht's characterised only by things that can't be seen, like poor health, lethargy, aches and pains, headaches, etcetera? Where's the automatic feedback 'Oh yeah, you're getting stressed now. Avoid this feeling'. It's to similar to anxiety and panic on the odd ocasion when it actuall yemerges as an emotion. seriously, evolution COULD have done a better job with that reflex -_- Especially for something that can be so damaging. At least we're less inclined to die. Small animals tend to die very quickly from stress. And they, too, can seem fine.

Enough about stress. gonna be a code monkey for a while. Trying to hold on to picture ideas untill then. Kayain and the Crow, The Sands, the bridge... they're all gonna end up being large projects if I do get to do them. But I will do my best - I really, REALLY want to draw them -_-.

Okay, enough with the whining. Donnie Darko directors cut coming out soon. Muuuust... Seeeee.... :: drool ::

Bro's B'day coming up too. Poor boy.

Nuff said. Lecture soon. Full of rage. Quet rage. Mmm, tastey rage.

- posted by Washi @ 1:36 pm